Banggakah dia utk hdp dlm serba kekurangan?
Show off ke dia utk menceritakan setiap kesusahan yg dialami?
Hebatkah dia utk terima stp kesusahan yg diduga Nya?
Teruk sgt kah dia dgn stp kata2 yg diluahkan itu sehingga menyinggung perasaan pasangannya?
Berniat buruk kah dia dgn menceritakan setiap perkara yang ditimpa?
Pada sape lg utk dia luahkan semuanya?
ummm those questions used to express the feeling a friend of mine...She's woke up in the morning and drove to office with the heartache... Sumbody asked her 'Hey kenapa mata bengkak?'...she replied 'Cried!'....then her colleague keep questioning her again 'Lor...why?did u guys fight or smthng?'....she replied again with her poker face 'Ummm we're not fighting at all, jst smthng happened accidentally. dunno to say but i got no intention for mocking him at all....
she's started to build up a deeper conversation oredi...
...Last nite he called me and we talked jst like a couple always do...everything is Ok at the first. He laughed and me too.No doubt, both of us only needed a short conversation, a short story telling before goin to sleep...i told him
'my lappy problem again la'...bla bla bla..
.he said
'hey u're an engineer, jst buy the new one la'
....ekceli deep inside 'oooo Tuhan seandainya dia tahu betapa ssh nya aku skang'....
'Ummm i'm only left 400 smthng to survive dis month, how am i goin to buy the new one...every month i used to work hard n did overtimes yet the same amount aso left in my pocket!...and dis month, 1300 spent jst for car+credit card+rental fee+loans...not included others...transferred money to pay education fees/ charges for schooling siblings and bla bla bla...awk xtau kn???ummm then skang bru awk thu..."
he used to keep listening me up and me..tend to speechless...what should i say...am i wrong?i am just 'bout for telling him the truth..then he broke the air...
'ye la...awk je ssh...sya ni sng...xpernah idup ssh nk itu dpt nk ini dpt'...
i am goin to speechless again!what???no...is he misunderstood?while calculating every single word i said....
'ummmm k la'
means he doesn't need to listen or speak out anymore...i am waiting n keep waiting in speechless then i ended up the col after all....what for utk tggu2 lg...how cud he tended to say those words...am i mocking him???NO!!!i'm not...i wanted him to know how hard i am...how sad i am, failed to get him anything for coming RAYA...betapa malunya aku msa ceritakan semua tu!
.....there is a silent!!!!
p/s: if i were u i did the same things too...
- Menangis sehingga tertdo...
- Tercari2 pda sape lg aku nk ceritakan semua masalah aku...bukan utk menagih simpati pon malah org hanya mampu mendengar...tp pd yg merasa Allah shj yg tahu...xsemua benda diluahkan pon...kdg2 malu utk luahkan segalanya...bkn malu dgn takdir atau dugaan yg diberikan tp malu krna gagal hadapi ujian ini...
- Terfikir 'Kenapa dlu setiap luahan di dgr pnh kusyuk n rsa simpati...n used to say 'Kuatnya awak, thn dgn semua tu...kalau sya, xtau la mcm mna'...NO...stp org yg meluahkan ape yg di rsa xkn mengharapkan simpati atau pujian ooo hebatnya dia thn dgn dugaan...bangganya dia dgn pujian itu....NO....satu dipinta....pahami lah dia...dia sekadar meluahkan tanggungjwb yg ditanggung...ssh sng bersama kelurga bkn la satu bebanan tp tanggungjwb...dan kini bila diluahkan segalanya...kenapa la cpt slh fhm...
- Kecewa n trs speechless!!!Regardless anymore what would happen next...
....i love him...yes i did...i am sorry if i did wrong...once i'd lost all those friends of me hadn't been to much familiar feature around me except you; aeroll and...u knew who they are...they're taking care of me jst like u did before...since u're far away they're trying to replace u...only for a certain thgs...but then i'm glad for having them around...yet u're still at the first place!!!nobody is perfect tho
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