Pls go away...

Nak srh sape pergi ni???hurmmm there is nobody need to go away in this case. But the 'perasaan' pls go away...i dun need it...It's not the time ekceli, b'coz now i am counting on my day.

the important date coming soon:

• 25 Sept 10: Air Asia airport...wait for me dear...i am heading to you soon
• 26 Sept 10: Up to monstark...nk blk trs kltn ke nk jln KL dlu...fyi sya xjadi nk trn keja ari tu...the replacement day oredi changed tau. so nk blk trs pn of cos we can
• 29 Sept 10: I am 26 years old :) and what a great day to be with u montsark
• 1 Oct 10   : Sahaja aku terima nikahnya...ngee Aminn
• 2 Oct 10   : Probably is goin to T'ganu...whether i am happy or not...YES I AM VERY HAPPY as long as u're hugging n holding me almost that time
• 10 Oct 10 : From Bachok to Bintulu...Welcome2 ma+ku+adik+makcik2+pakcik2+anak2 buahku... :)

p/s: Kalo xde mood, xyah la pk psl sedey2 tu...u better help urself to let them away...Happiness wud come later...i love u monstark!

Seksa Meninggalkan Solat...

Sempena bln Ramadhan...jst for sharing ekceli.For those who oredi knew it then it's gud enuf n for don't...sma2 kite amek iktibar..semoga entry ni bg manfaat kt semua termsk la aku sndri...

Seksaan Di dunia ada 6:

1. Allah mengurangkan berkat hidupnya
2. Allah tidak mempermudahkan rezkinya di dunia
3. Allah menghilangkan tanda atau cahaya soleh dr raut mukanya
4. Dia tidak mempunyai tempat dlm Islam
5. Amal kebajikannya tidak mendpt pahala
6. Allah tidak menerima doanya

Seksaan tika menghadapi mati ada 3:

1. Mati dlm keadaan hina
2. Mati dlm keadaan yg sgt lapar
3. Mati dlm keadaan mendahagakan walaupun tlh byk mnm air

Seksaan sewaktu dlm kubur ada 3:

1.  Allah akan menyempitkan kuburnya sesempitnya
2. Allah akan menggelapkan kuburnya
3. Allah akan menyeksanya sehingga hari kiamat

Seksaan ketika bertemu Allah ada 3:

1. Pd hari kiamat dia akan dibelenggu oleh malaikat
2. Allah tdk memandangnya dgn belas ihsan
3. Allah tdk akan mengampunkan dosa2 nya dan diazab dlm neraka dgn azab yg pedih lg keras...

p/s: Semoga sma2 kite mengerjakan smbhyg 5 waktu...urmmm peringatan utk diri aku juga...kengkadang asal ari mggu ade gak ter'overslept'...huhuhu...cpt2 la qada'....Nauzubillah dgn semua2 seksaan itu kan.Amin...Ekeceli aku dpt tau semua ni pas terbca poster kt surau tmpt kje...n why not share2 utk semua

A sign???Perhaps..

Almost every nite la we heard 'bout baby dumping cases N last nite it was a happy news ekceli.Couple yg buang baby dlm tong sampah kt Melaka dah kene tahan...ucapan yg sesuai 'PADAN MUKA'.eeee that guy looks very innocent la...the girl as well...both around 17-18 yrs old.Plg sedih bila mengenangkan baby tu yg dah meninggal dgn xberslh nya n....their parents?mcm mna la perasaan mak ayah diorang once they knew all this. Berita mlm td ckp diorang blh diikat jamin, n bertambah sedih mak ayah terpaksa merayu mntk dikurangkan jumlah jaminan disebabkan kemiskinan...arghhhh siannya mak ayah dorang...dah la org ssh ank plak buat keje bdh xpk mak bapak...nauzubillah...Ya Allah jauhkan aku,keluargaku n muslimin muslimat dr benda2 mcm ni...huhu...sedih...

Kalo pk2 blk ape sbb ye the pcs of babies dumping died keep rising day by day.Gov dah announced hukuman n tindakan yg akan diambil utk kes buang bayi ni...pd kotak pikiran aku ummm mmg ptt la keno hukuman gantung or watever...but i toi it is for the short term only la...bak kata pepatah " Prevent is better than cure"...jd alangkah baik jika semua2 pemimpin xkira la dr parti mna n menteri2 dr jabatan mna pon ddk n sma berbincang how to prevent this social disease. Ni ape aku pk la:

1. Sbb skali pk mcm semua org terlps pandang je...betapa xpenting nya pendidikan Islam kt sklh. Utk UPSR mak ayah srh anak dpt 5A...n yg sdh nya Pendidikan Islam tu xtermsk pon dlm 5 subjek tu...pastu kalo PMR pn sma jugak...kalo ko failed Pendidikan Islam pon (esp for Muslims) dpt jer dok kls sains ker sastera ke...pendek kata dpt gak naik form 4...For SPM candidates plak Pendidikan Islam punya gred lg la xpenting.Dpt 9 pon xpe janji dpt gak msk U...unless yg mna nk amek course yg berkaitan agama jer...Mcm dah xpenting semua tu...

2. Rancangan hiburan n konsert yg melampau2...ummm mgkn slh stu faktor kot. Sdh nya dgr kwn aku ckp rancangan Imam muda kt TV9 tu xdpt sambutan hangat dr org rmi!mak ayah zaman skang lg suka anak msk Mentor, AF n ape2 lg la...siap nangis2 tu xdpt jadik penyanyi...kalo la menangis sbb ank xdpt msk rancangan2 agama kn bgs...program realiti utk carik bakat jd atlet pon ok ape...dah la tu kalo menang program realiti tv yg hiburan2 tu, mak ai hadiah bapak la lumayan.Pendek kata pemenang jadik Orang Kaya Baru la...tp cuba tgk hadiah utk pemenang Tilawah Al-Quran ke, Imam Muda ke....or ape2 la baik2...alahai xrmi plak nk sponsor2...sedihnya...

Ummm pnjg nya bebel...tu baru psl kes bayi yg kne buang...n ari ni bila bca berita psl oberC pon sdh gak...sian org2 Palestin...Luckily Allah dah beri petunjuk sket2...One of Israeli soldier posed with bound Arab. Gmbr dpn terpampang sorang askar Israel pompuan yg posing dpn 3 org prisoners ...They ekceli were hancuffed n blindfolded...eee kejam nya dorang ni...yg minah tu plak dgn bangga nya upload gmbr dia tu kt FB...sudahnya dia dikecam n gmbr2 dia tu dianggap 'DISGRACEFUL' oleh kaum Israel sendiri...served u rite....kt FB blh plak main2 kan the Palestinians...siap ckp she is wondering if that guy got FB account and she gonna tagged the pics...sungguh kurang ajaq...seemed that girl obviously overt to exploit Muslims esp. the Palestinians...HELL...

p/s: Mari la sma2 doakan yg terbaik utk umat Islam...even aku ni pon bkn lah umat Islam yg taat jua but then, there is no harm for me to pls be remind each others.

overtime

hahaha...we've Mc'D for breaking fast 2day...jst col 1300-13-1300 then yabedabedu....arrived n ready to eat.Alhamdulillah kenyang dgn rezki ari ni...syukur padaMu Ya Allah eventho aku...ngehngehngeh...tp confirm esk aku da leh puasa...ummm bkk puasa ari ni ngan kak ina, kak izan n kak zimah...dorang yg puasa but then aku dlu yg abiskan GCB aku...dorang mnm air n mkn fries pon da ckp.Aiseh terblk plak...neway mmg aku xplk sbb selera aku mkn makin menjadi2 sejak nk jadi mrs. aeroll...muahahaha...there u go...GCB layan

 MINE...muahahaha

Istimewa utk mr.monstark...muhaaha...mmg kene r slogan (ye ke slogan) ngan GCB ni

kak ina, kak izan ngan kak zimah...kotak GCB aku jerk dah xde isi

cokelat sedap dr SUDAN neh...tq sis

p/s: No more entry for dis moment...kenyang...muahahha...mr.monstark sila la kamu dtg ke sini...sya belanja double GCB

10.08.2010

bismiallahirahmanirrahim....

Alhamdulillah ari ni ckp sthn da aku kerja kat CCT ni...kalo nk tau klik www.cct.com.my...ahaks...promote xhengat...mcm bgs jerk.Dlm msa sthn mcm2 jugak la blaja...ilmu cetek dlm troubleshooting or analisis lg tp bab2 mengenali org2 kt sni so far da berjaya kot...tahniah farah oit...tp syukur juga ade rezki kt sni sbb Allah itu Maha Mengetahui segalanya...ummm ade ape lg ngan tarikh 10.08 ni???

Alhamdulillah persiapan utk kawen juga bertambah dah...yeahhaaaa akhirnya da slmt buat HIV test...wakkk jom kawen...ahaksss.xhabes2 nk menggedik...heboh...tp tu la...while waiting for my turn td, ade couple ni la yg kunun2 buat HIV test jugak la (mostly dtg bercouple..hukhukhuk..)kalo xslh aku they oll ni dtg awl dr aku...tp yg plk turn dorang xsmpi..ummm skali pakwe dia g tercungok kt dpn blk injection tu, then dia pandang org mskkan form n ic dlm box yg ade kt dpn pintu tu...aku tgk muka dia dah kompius2.kbtln nurse tetiba kuar dr pintu tu pastu dia tanya nurse tu 'nk kene letak ke form kt dlm ni'....bla bla bla..there was an arguments i thought...pastu mamat ni menghilang tah kemana...5mins later dia dtg ngan awek dia  n suddenly "tgk ni...lain kali baca!!!"...ummm dia salahkan awek dia la sbb xbca arahan yg tertampal kt pintu blk injection tu psl kene mskkan form n ic dlm kotak tu...pastu ade la drama2 merajuk, mrh2 n mcm2 lg la kt dorang tu...then pompuan mai dok sblh aku, so (kbtln mmg aku nk tau ape dorang ckp pn...bz body lak ai)mcm2 la yg digaduhkan n agaknya pompuan tu dah bengang sgt pastu trs ckp "blh diam takkkk!!!!"mak ai semua org pandang dorang...huhuhu...malunya kan...lama jugak dorang gdh2 n tgh muncung2 tu akhirnya no dorang dipanggil...hurmmmm....dpt result la after all...huh...moral of story lain kali bca btl2 la kn...jgn asyik slhkan org lain jer...yg laki tu asyik slh kan awek dia n nurse kt situ...siap g mrh org yg kat kaunter tu...huh...tp tgk air muka dorang muka cm innocent jerk...huhu...xckp matured utk kawen kot (aku matured ke???matured x matured aku nk kawen jugak)....ummm sepatutnya tu jd ari bahagia dorang sbb sma2 dpt buat HIV test...cm aku???kami terpaksa la pg buat srg2..monstark kn bntlu aku kt shah alam...sedey gak tgk couple2 lain wat sma2 n msa nk daftar tu pon akak kaunter tu tanya "dtg berdua ke sorang"...hukhukhuk...nk je ckp "tunang sya jauhhhhh sgt dr sya"...huhuhu tp xpe yg pntg kami syukur semua da OK...heheeh...selamatttttt bersanding...acehhhhhh...immediately called each other lg...monstark siap dlu trs col...pas aku siap pon aku col...excited la kunun...hahaha...kawennnnn

 see...da setel cgek

p/s: berita sedih...ma tgh sakit kt kg...tp ari ni da dpt bgn...semoga ma cpt sembuh aminnnnnnn...rsa nk blk jer...huhuhu

xde tajuk...hurm!!!

Yeah 2day is saturday...and me gonna go out wif cak'a...but then i need to be in office jugak.A few thngs still pending for couple of weeks dah ni..kalo bos tanya aku huh mati weh.Lucky me he forgot to...tp sblm kne tanya baik aku siapkan...warghhhh menciiiiii...

Jst crossed my mind...'bersemangat Farah!!!u're gonna get ur wedding dress 2day...'.arghhhhh exhausted to fit in that.Hopefully i am satisfied lor.Pls la baju...waaaa nk pki time kawen tu...Kunun da nk kawen tp cuba tanya preparation???arghhhh gile ke hape 2months left farah...igt2 blk ape lg aku xbuat...mcm sket je lg...

1. HIV test????...ooo tidak aku xbuat lg...yesterday i went to clinic oredi...unfortunately that guy told me 'Awk dtg ari Isnin -Khamis, pkl 2ptg- 4ptg ok...amek msa 15 jer n limit 40 org per day'....menchiiii lg aku...penat je amek time off...sib baik bos aku jns memahami...so plan nk g this monday rite after lunch la...
2. Submit form???kalo da HIV test pon blm submit form lg laaaa....i am still waiting for him...'Dear pls la be quick...'xmok because of some sort then end up nyer kelam kabut...ooo tidak...
3. Brg2 hantaran???arghhh xckp lg...tafsir, kek (ni xpe nk kawen ari ni bli), cokelat yg spesel (ni pon sma kes ngan kek)...but e most important is...brg2 nk deco n how to deco tu xde idea lg ni...huahuahuahua...
4. Senarai kengkawan???ooo aku xliskan lg...this part mmg penting la...hrp2 aku xde tercicir pn utk menjemput member2 aku ni...dah kne start korek2 alamat dorang ni...
5. Pelamin???ummm yg ni lg satu...ikut ati aku n monstark mmg xnk sanding2 neh...buang duit (kami2 ni spesis pk msa dpn kunun)...ceh tp nk gak bergambar n parents kami pon nk jugak pelamin so...ummm mna nk carik yg best...kami nk simple mimple je...ckp la kn...
6. Make up???huhu xdecide lg nk amek ngan sape...monstark xnk dah tgk muka aku over make up ni...aku pn xnkkkk...ummm bila nk g survey ni???arghhhh buntu2...
7. Brg2 nk kasik kt kengkawan???belom carik lg...plan nk g carik ngan monstark...tu pon 5ari sblm kami ehem2...kawen la..warhhhhh gedik...
8. xde da kot (ngek ni pon ko mskkan jugak farah)...

ummm mcm byk je lg...adeh2...Ya Allah ya Tuhan ku  Kau permudahkan la urusan kami...Berkati la majlis kami...hukhukhuk...terasa diri ni jht tetiba...time sdh, time ssh, time nk mntk tlg, time nk g interview, time nk ade peluang utk increment, time skt ati baru ingat kt Allah...cuba time happy????huhuhu tidak....Ya Allah jgn biar aku lalai lg...

Harapan utk ari kawen

"Memandangkan itu ari bahagia aku ngan monstrak hrp2 Allah permudahkan segalanya n berkati majlis aku ni.Aku juga harap setiap tetamu, kengkawan adik, makcik, tok wan, mak teh, n sape2 la dtg dgn membawa doa utk kebahagiaan kami...cpt2 dpt anak gitu...warghhh ayat gedik lg...kukikukikuki...semoga kekal smpi bla2...n hrp2 msa majlis tu jgn la smpi smbhyg 5 waktu tu pon ditinggalkan....ye la da make up tebal2 kang xsdr diri plak nk g smbhyg..."

p/s: Monstark ku syg cpt2 kasik form tu kt sya....huhuhuhu

sekadar renungan

Banggakah dia utk hdp dlm serba kekurangan?

Show off ke dia utk menceritakan setiap kesusahan yg dialami?

Hebatkah dia utk terima stp kesusahan yg diduga Nya?

Teruk sgt kah dia dgn stp kata2 yg diluahkan itu sehingga menyinggung perasaan pasangannya?

Berniat buruk kah dia dgn menceritakan setiap perkara yang ditimpa?

Pada sape lg utk dia luahkan semuanya?

ummm those questions used to express the feeling a friend of mine...She's woke up in the morning and drove to office with the heartache... Sumbody asked her 'Hey kenapa mata bengkak?'...she replied 'Cried!'....then her colleague keep questioning her again 'Lor...why?did u guys fight or smthng?'....she replied again with her poker face 'Ummm we're not fighting at all, jst smthng happened accidentally. dunno to say but i got no intention for mocking him at all....

she's started to build up a deeper conversation oredi...

...Last nite he called me and we talked jst like a couple always do...everything is Ok at the first. He laughed and me too.No doubt, both of us only needed a short conversation, a short story telling before goin to sleep...i told him

'my lappy problem again la'...bla bla bla..

.he said 

'hey u're an engineer, jst buy the new one la'

 ....ekceli deep inside 'oooo Tuhan seandainya dia tahu betapa ssh nya aku skang'....

'Ummm i'm only left 400 smthng to survive dis month, how am i goin to buy the new one...every month i used to work hard n did overtimes yet the same amount aso left in my pocket!...and dis month, 1300 spent jst for car+credit card+rental fee+loans...not included others...transferred money to pay education fees/ charges for schooling siblings and bla bla bla...awk xtau kn???ummm then skang bru awk thu..."

he used to keep listening me up and me..tend to speechless...what should i say...am i wrong?i am just 'bout for telling him the truth..then he broke the air...

'ye la...awk je ssh...sya ni sng...xpernah idup ssh nk itu dpt nk ini dpt'...

i am goin to speechless again!what???no...is he misunderstood?while calculating every single word i said....

'ummmm k la'

means he doesn't need to listen or speak out anymore...i am waiting n keep waiting in speechless then i ended up the col  after all....what for utk tggu2 lg...how cud he tended to say those words...am i mocking him???NO!!!i'm not...i wanted him to know how hard i am...how sad i am, failed to get him anything for coming RAYA...betapa malunya aku msa ceritakan semua tu!

.....there is a silent!!!!

p/s: if i were u i did the same things too...

1. Menangis sehingga tertdo...
2. Tercari2 pda sape lg aku nk ceritakan semua masalah aku...bukan utk menagih simpati pon malah org hanya mampu mendengar...tp pd yg merasa Allah shj yg tahu...xsemua benda diluahkan pon...kdg2 malu utk luahkan segalanya...bkn malu dgn takdir atau dugaan yg diberikan tp malu krna gagal hadapi ujian ini...
3. Terfikir 'Kenapa dlu setiap luahan di dgr pnh kusyuk n rsa simpati...n used to say 'Kuatnya awak, thn dgn semua tu...kalau sya, xtau la mcm mna'...NO...stp org yg meluahkan ape yg di rsa xkn mengharapkan simpati atau pujian ooo hebatnya dia thn dgn dugaan...bangganya dia dgn pujian itu....NO....satu dipinta....pahami lah dia...dia sekadar meluahkan tanggungjwb yg ditanggung...ssh sng bersama kelurga bkn la satu bebanan tp tanggungjwb...dan kini bila diluahkan segalanya...kenapa la cpt slh fhm...
4. Kecewa n trs speechless!!!Regardless anymore what would happen next...

....i love him...yes i did...i am sorry if i did wrong...once i'd lost all those friends of me hadn't been to much familiar feature around me except you; aeroll and...u knew who they are...they're taking care of me jst like u did before...since u're far away they're trying to replace u...only for a certain thgs...but then i'm glad for having them around...yet u're still at the first place!!!nobody is perfect tho